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Well, the words I was waiting for have been said. Mind you, I was hoping for something a little more in person rather than over e-mail, but it wasn't as if it was really much of a shock. I had expected this sort of outcome since last year when I brought up my confession.
It's taken this long for the words to come to light. I still have to ask later, just so that there will be some sort of conclusion to this saga, but the outcome is already clear and the path I need to follow is now laid out before me.
I'm still happy that I was given this second chance. Ever since that day a year ago, when I knew I had to take a detour from life. I needed to try. I needed to know. I knew I didn't try hard enough the first time, and because of that I was doomed to failure. But now I know that I have failed even when I gave it my all. That's a frightening revelation.
But she was worth it. Out of all the people that I know, she would've been the one I could accept that from. Well, her and one other..
Now what? What choices do I have at this point? Funny enough, I have the same choices I had when I found out the news last year. I am back to where I was, but a little wiser, a little bit older, and a little more courageous. I've also gained an ally who I can fall back on lest I need one. That is something that I've been missing for a long time. That was something that I needed last time. That will be something I'll be using in due time.
The investment here isn't in vain. That much I know. I knew that when I first decided to step off the path to pursue this opportunity. It was a chance I was given to do what I should've done the first time, ten years ago, when she turned around in that stairwell to greet me. I'm glad I chose wisely.
But.. there is still one more thing..
